-
2 years ago
Relinquishing my vanishing act
Dazzled on how matters of the heart affect me on the forefront of life’s greatest epiphany.
Funny how a seemingly innocent argument leave my brother with bruises and me leaving through the front door. And I swear I won’t return with this confused and troubled mind.
When i was giving brilliant upper cut punches on someone whom supposedly should look up to me for ‘directions’ in this maze that life holds, I couldn’t help but wonder what makes me be this way that I never was.
As I walked through the door, I heard my folks’s incessant cries, my dad’s crescendo - pitched voice to assure me that what I am about to do is plain stupid, my sister’s lovely high pitch screams of reassurance that she will always love me regardless of where I stand, I couldn’t help but wonder am I a failure?
I completely fucked up my life beyond any last hopes of repair. Even the crucial fundamentals that I have learnt, I destroyed. I am a newborn now. A newborn that only knew fighting and a complete hatred to all girls.
Fuck it, I’m never coming home to where I belong indefinitely. It’s never a question. The question in hand is what will I do to survive now? Brilliant question indeed.
Am I the worst guy in the world? Or what I did was the aftermath of the worst girl I have known?
Notes
Following
