November 2009
24 posts
I.don't.understand.
I don’t understand. I have removed my tag board. Sorry people.
Wo.ai.ni.
Nytes.
Sorry Irfaan, I couldn’t be there, a fucked up thing just happened.
I think too much
I think I’m too selfish these 3 weeks. Seconds ago, I thought about the not - so - distant future with me donning the dreaded shades of green, serving the country with absolute despair.
Of course, a few tears came trickling down my cheeks. I thought about how I’m going to miss my sister, my family, the meet - up sessions with cousins and friends and of course Sarah Afiqa binte Abdul...
My love
Sorry I uploaded your pics without your knowledge. Don’t be mad :(. I want to see your face each time I blog that’s why. Love, you make my day each time, I love you and only you.
Floorball Carnival Sweetheart!
Saturday! Saturday! Saturday!
Floorball carnival. I want to win and I will win even if the likes of Johnson or Herman are playing. I don’t give a damn. I hope I get to play against them as I love proving to myself and scoring against them is a sign that I have improved considerably.
Sarah, you’re a leader, a fitting ambassador to represent your school in front of the VIPs. Not...
Over
The chapter of my past love life is way and truly behind me now. Like everyone pointed out, I deserved better. Mum and Dad too was in disbelief as to how low she went when I gave her waves and waves of love. It’s all good now.
Sarah Afiqa - The onIy one that really really really makes me go head over heels for her. The first girl who could read me like a book and understand my feelings like...
I try
I will try to accept the harsh reality of the situation right now.
I will try to win the floorball carnival open mixed category ( far fetched though )
I will try to be a better person.
My ankle’s hurting badly :(
I love you Sarah Afiqa.
Have you guys heard of wtf?
Wtf? Wtf? Bad bad bad day today. Cb. Cb. Cb.
Floorball later on.
P.S. I’ve already started missing you. </3
Wait, P.S. also stands for Princess Sarah.
Cut me some slack peeps, I’m feeling too fucked up to meet you guys now.
The thing about - love
The thing about love is best explained through your eyes, your lips and your breath.
The highlight of the day:
Sarah: Hey, how’s your ankle?
Me: My ankle’s good, it had healed.
Sarah: ( with two thumbs up, close to her face ) Good.
OMFG so cute. Sent her home, halfway through the Paranormal Crap movie. I more than make up the remaining half of the movie time by listening to her...
No title, just raw brute emotions.
I am incredibly and mightily pissed right now.
Sick.
Zar and me could not go to gym today because both of us are sick. I could not get out of bed till 8 pm.
I should push myself further.
Where is the moment?
Had an awesome time with Zar and his group of friends playing sepak takraw. Well, things took a drastic turn when I entered the house. Ironically, the “Welcome” mat that is suppose to give a ‘warm and dry welcome’ to visitors make me feel unwelcome by my mum’s sudden cold shoulder treatment.
Should not elaborate on this further, I was too torn apart to even think...
A Call
My life is spiralling way out of proportion because you make me to. I’m so in love with you till my mood is always up and yeah thanks to you, Ive learned to smile 24/7. I know its you, you and you in my blog nowadays but believe me, this is not even close to how important you are in my life.
Your smile and your eyes are addictive. Very much, indeed till I could literally lay down on my bed...
..,,..
I love you Sarah Afiqa.
Meeting Zar tomorrow.
Maybe having McD breakfast with Sarah.
And the thing she did to me, no one, i repeat no one, will ever do for me.
Each day, I love her more than how I love her the previous day. Sometimes I wonder, what’s the peak of my love?
There's a train and I don't wanna miss it.
Was feeling utterly disjointed and depressed just now. Clearly, I felt that I should storm out of the house to “breathe new air”. Till Sarah Afiqa texted me which followed my a phone call soon after.
The thing that swept me off my feet was when she blatantly lied to me telling me she’s taking a break when clearly she’s stressing and working ever so haphazardly to complete...
I don't deserve
I dont wanna be a pussy. But i’m hurt physically and mentally. Physically cos.. Forget about it. It’s too difficult to explain, no one will understand anyway.
Sarah, I’m sorry. Really really sorry. Sorry. urgh!!!!!!!! ):
Hey peeps.
Today’s the best day ever. I mean it.
If I can’t hear your breath, you’re too far away.
If I ever wish for anything, it’s staring into your eyes and hearing the wisdom words of yours that left me goosebumps and my heart skipped a beat.
See ya tomorrow, I’ve been itching to tell ya something, but you’ll be disappointed.
I.
Lately, wonderful yet peculiar things happened in my life. Maybe I was too hasty, too disjointed or I think that I can just write it down as pure elation when the first seeds of love were planted in my heart.
What’s done, I won’t regret, what’s to be done, I will savour for you are the most wonderful addition to my sea of life thus far. No matter what had happened, or what will...
Many things
What the hell happen to you Z? I mean seriously what happened? You’re not like this when I know you. It’s just because of M, you’ve got so fired up to land yourself in hot soup?
Oh please Z, I will go into more details when I meet you or call you. And bro, don’ do anything stupid, I’ve got your back in any case.
Some times I wonder what’s love is all about?...
S.A.
Even tho’ I am a pedestrian in your life who stops by to greet you, I do think you’re awesome. I have the unusual knack of judging a book by its cover without having to read it’s content. Stupid? Probably.
S.A. I know how much it hurts to be living in your shoes and believe me, no one will ever want to live in it even for a moment. I may not know you well, but I’m utterly...
:(
Some of the posts had been deleted. I’m not in love. Love hurts. Gosh, I don’t know, I don’t know, I have never felt like this in my entire life.
A star for anyone's deserving
Here’s the edible honey star :)
The vital cornerstones
The vital pillars of my life are based on the strength and quality of love and friendship. These are indeed crucial for me to lead a happy and fruitful life.
Friendship’s never boastful or should never be challenged emotionally. I do know of stories where their competitive streak vaporize the bond that hold these awesome people together. I never feel jealous of anything that my friends...
October 2009
24 posts
From afar, I seek solace, comfort and compassion in the thing that I love the most.
Self - proclaimed insanity
When I was born, I was a beautiful flower, with purple velvet petals, with leaves green as the sea and with a mild stalk. A rose. And I was giving love, warmth and tenderness to all around me, believing that I was meant to be the flower of love. I don’t know who was wrong: me, giving too much, or them, who did not understand… because my life was full of hands who broke me apart… not for rejoicing...
Don't come back
Last night’s helping - a - cousin session till early sunrise is definitely worth mentioning about. All in all, I’m fairly satisfied with the creative writing I did for him which basically incorporates his lovely ideas. Finished a 500 word essay in urm 20 minutes?
As usual, when guy meets guy, they talk and ‘gossip’ with relative ease. Went floorball soon after and gosh, I...
Boring.
Floorball training is gonna be awesome tomorrow. I’m so looking forward to it, considering it’s been 2 weeks since I last played.
And gosh, my daily routines are killing me but at the same time, i feel good about my body and I bet it could seriously reflect on my looks :)
P.S. Missy A, have a safe trip home:) pity you a lot.
Never thought
Never thought I am such a failure in life. Maybe I often enjoy success all my life and failure is bound to happen sometime in my life. The heart - breaking thing is I’m too feeble and fragile to face it now. Well of course, it helps having your close family and friends out there giving you every ounce of support.
At least, I outlaid the grand master plan for my direction that I want to take...
Meet me, myself and I
I cannot comprehend the mind - blowing actions that I took yesterday. To abide by those actions completely swept me off my feet. I’m dumbfounded as to why the small changes that I made immediately transcends into my soul. Every prayer sessions now seem more peaceful and in sync with me imagining that I’m in the Holy Land.
A is an exceptionally well - mannered girl with great...
Sorry
My heartfelt apologies to you for thinking that I’ve got large columns of women at my disposal. Honestly, I’ve never felt like that. Women are the best creatures that God ever created and I place them in high regard, no matter whoever.
Gosh, I’m sorry A. Sometimes, I asked myself why am I so stupid to divulge my attention to certain people whom can only mean bad for me. Talking...
Probably the best night in my life
I owe a truckload of “thank - you’s” to Fazilah, Azhar and Mashitah for lifting a passing dark cloud over my sky.
Love all of you so much.
Relinquishing my vanishing act
Dazzled on how matters of the heart affect me on the forefront of life’s greatest epiphany.
Funny how a seemingly innocent argument leave my brother with bruises and me leaving through the front door. And I swear I won’t return with this confused and troubled mind.
When i was giving brilliant upper cut punches on someone whom supposedly should look up to me for...
Nice
Z pushed me to my very limits today. But I am extremely glad that he did that
Sadly, he wasn’t as hyped up due to his uncalled for sickness. Get well soon man.
Finally, I think that I am ready to open my heart to girls. Of course, they must be my kind.
A big 'haha'
Farah : Yaz!!! boyfriend aku rindu aku gila sial . thank you! thank you! mwah! mwah!
Me: Okay -.-“
Me: Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he’s choosing everyday not to be with you. (Thanks Liyana!;))
Farah : Really? Alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Me : True what
Farah : You always got something better to say , you silly boy. Love you man
Me : Of...
No one thought
Me: You think, I can sing?
Fazilah: Of course you can.
Me: You think I would be upset if you say that i can’t right?
Fazilah: No. Duh. Straight from the heart.
Me: But why so?
Fazilah: Cos i love your voice and the way you talk
Me: What’s so interesting?
Fazilah: Because I love how your eyes are moving in sync with your lips. Say I love you.
Me: Err, I love you?
...
An irony of gratitude
The ‘cool’ act on facebook that you did planted a final nail in the coffin for your chapter in my life. Thank you for giving the much needed boost that I was waiting for.
On a much brighter note, thank you Fazilah for visiting me at 1am till 2.30am to keep me company cos I said I was bored. Hell yeah did she cheer me up big time :) Love ya man. Yeap, maybe you are right after all...
Deeply hurt
Growing up as a teenager obviously has the pros and the cons. Some of the part and parcel of ‘growing up’ includes increased sexual limitations and of course hopping on a train of rebels against the well wishers i.e. your parents.
Like many, I am ashamed to admit that rebelling is my number one habit. Regretfully, now one my parents is not with me anymore. He’s gone temporarily...
In a state of confusion and utter dismay
Like always, I woke up feeling fresh and juicy after grabbing a good 10 hours of unperturbed slumber. Rushed to my laptop as I had this gut feeling that someone sent me a message on facebook. That itself is a rare occasion.
Imagine how flabbergasted I was when I found out that it was true? It’s my best bud that sent me and after reading word for word, I’m left speechless. It’s a...
Hello goodbye
Life is pretty much mandatory these days.
I am so close to breaking down into incorrigible pieces of glass. I couldn’t be more thankful to God as he sent lovely angels in the form of my friends and my family who frantically muster every ounce of courage in me to replace the hope that disappeared. With that, I am thankful.
For now, I am slapped with an impossible task to do by my Dad. Where...
Some hideous creatures.
There was once upon a time a princess enchanted a prince’s life with all her charm, her beauty too captivated the prince’s eyes.
Under the brilliant night sky, the prince inches closer to his beloved princess. They were closer at heart than Romeo and Juliet or any fantasy lover’s sequel.
He whispered, “You are the most turesque that ever happened in my life, I need you...
A short day
I am extremely flabbergasted by the news that my beloved grandfather passed on. I am still coming into terms to it actually.
Anyway, I sincerely apologize to you bro as I know how you hated backing out last minute.
She’s got all I ever wanted. She’s got what I yearned for.
It’s still too early.
Awesome time
Floorball was awesome today. Pulled off some cute rabbits out of the hat but I am extremely disappointed with my finishing today but nevertheless I am generally pleased with my performance at large though.
Nobody says love is going to be smooth sailing.
Nobody says love is a full - time entertainment show.
Indulging in love often bring heart - wrecked moments, moments of absolute epiphany and...
What about Now?
What about Today?
Take a bow
Distressed I may feel. Disjointed I may look. However, knowing the series of unfortunate events my friend is suffering from make me realize that I am not that unfortunate after all. Each time I face or experience a heart - breaking passage in my life, I stare into the space, the vastness depicts the kind of life I am having albeit, with no end in sight.
Nothing to look forward to previously. Not...
“Well done is better than Well said - Benjamin Franklin”
